Shades of Being Tired

I am tired and I have work to do in the morning 
But the night just takes me over, nothing feels better
I hope for strength for both of us
And I secretly wish for your text
But I know I've lost it

Exactly two months later.

I am tired and I have work to do in the morning 
But the night is getting dizzy, bedding is too comfy
I hope for strength for both of us
And I secretly wish you never text
But i know you'll do it anyway

Five months hence.

I am tired and I have work to do in the morning
But longer screen time disrupts my sleep cycle
You are buried in the back of my mind, and deep down
You know everything that it feels without
I got things to tell, but I let you be, undisturbed

10 months down the line.


I am tired and it's cause I had a fulfilling day
Of simple things, nature, self love, work and breaks
I read, sketched, flexed, and fought your thoughts
I think you got across just too fast
No complaints, it's me and my unshaken heart

Gold

It's difficult explaining anybody why I must stay aloof
For nobody gets how I need to keep my heart safe
How important it is to not let it break
To not let any stranger create a wreck

I already got too much in my head space
My heart breaking with familiar ache
Ruins of days that still walk past by
Memories that never say goodbye

I don't know if anyone is capable of holding
The heart so tender a thing that it is
You need to be truly a man to know
How to hold a heart of gold