Shades of Being Tired

I am tired and I have work to do in the morning 
But the night just takes me over, nothing feels better
I hope for strength for both of us
And I secretly wish for your text
But I know I've lost it

Exactly two months later.

I am tired and I have work to do in the morning 
But the night is getting dizzy, bedding is too comfy
I hope for strength for both of us
And I secretly wish you never text
But i know you'll do it anyway

Five months hence.

I am tired and I have work to do in the morning
But longer screen time disrupts my sleep cycle
You are buried in the back of my mind, and deep down
You know everything that it feels without
I got things to tell, but I let you be, undisturbed

10 months down the line.


I am tired and it's cause I had a fulfilling day
Of simple things, nature, self love, work and breaks
I read, sketched, flexed, and fought your thoughts
I think you got across just too fast
No complaints, it's me and my unshaken heart

Gold

It's difficult explaining anybody why I must stay aloof
For nobody gets how I need to keep my heart safe
How important it is to not let it break
To not let any stranger create a wreck

I already got too much in my head space
My heart breaking with familiar ache
Ruins of days that still walk past by
Memories that never say goodbye

I don't know if anyone is capable of holding
The heart so tender a thing that it is
You need to be truly a man to know
How to hold a heart of gold

Mending

People can put you through shit
And yet act like it's your fault

Then they'll do that over again
And say they were just afraid

You'll see them spill out what's in them
Only to realize you were in delusion

That's how you know you were but the one
Know your worth and walk away

I know it hurts to know not everything
you thought and dreamt and felt was true

But never let them take you for granted love
And never let them take away the best in you




On the Other Side

Its crazy how the worldΒ 
Can be and not be like we want
Its crazy we try so hard
To fit in
But i think like this
We are ourselves
I am just me
And you are just you
They are just them
Please excuse my writing
Because it doesn't make sense right now
But hey, you will come out of this
One day
And you'll be as proud of yourself
As I am proud of you
This time is struggle
And we are fighters
I will see you on the other sideΒ 
Of the victory ground.
I wish I were there for you
To make your short breaks worthwhile
Refresh you in the little moment you got
Help you push yourself a little more
To make you feel you're beautiful inside out