It's difficult explaining anybody why I must stay aloof
For nobody gets how I need to keep my heart safe
How important it is to not let it break
To not let any stranger create a wreck

I already got too much in my head space
My heart breaking with familiar ache
Ruins of days that still walk past by
Memories that never say goodbye

I don't know if anyone is capable of holding
The heart so tender a thing that it is
You need to be truly a man to know
How to hold a heart of gold


Everytime I pull myself up
You come knocking with lilies
I peep through the keyhole
And I know how I love it

I'd been longing for flowers
you sell the best ones too
I abstain opening the doors
For I'd stopped buying from you

The last time you traded
roses full of thorns
Has still got me bruises
From things I still adorn

Yet I open the door
End up buying those lilies
Through my bleeding hand
Creeps in the willies

Words Hurt & Words Heal

 I have too many shits to give already
I donโ€™t intend to give no more
Gone is the time when every little critique
Pricked me right to the core

I burn in fumes for a second
It pinches as it should
Yet I donโ€™t let myself succumb to it
I save my fuel for the good

I remember the time Iโ€™d waste
Over guilts, mind at war
I rather be calm than impulsive
I know itโ€™s not worth anymore

Iโ€™m trying to overlook harsh words
When it haunts back too loud
I put them in a poem
Someday Iโ€™d read out aloud

I know thereโ€™s no ill intention
But words are powerful my friend
They cut through and heal
They're everything you do or donโ€™t intend