I am not to be called insane
Anyone would have done the same
Is the vertebral column misplaced?
Or there's oxygen deficiency in the brain?
The absurd past, I don't want to touch
Cause it troubles, troubles so much
Am I lost again?
In pain in strain, oh yeah?
I know that I'm not okay
I'm fighting with myself
And if I think anymore
I might burst the nerves of my head
Tag: Hurt
Of happy places
And magical dreams
Of sprinkles of sparkle
Of madness and sins
Of empty bottles
And broken hearts
Of everything devoid
Of healing scars
Of happiness in air
And pain in veins
Of repressed emotions
Of everything else in vain
Everytime I pull myself up
You come knocking with lilies
I peep through the keyhole
And I know how I love it
I'd been longing for flowers
you sell the best ones too
I abstain opening the doors
For I'd stopped buying from you
The last time you traded
roses full of thorns
Has still got me bruises
From things I still adorn
Yet I open the door
End up buying those lilies
Through my bleeding hand
Creeps in the willies
Some days I think I am pulling myself together
And then there are nights like these
When it starts taking over
I sit back up and start praying
The clock keeps rushing you see
my 6 hour alarm turned to 3
I don't know what else to write
Or do, or how to sleep
People can put you through shit
And yet act like it's your fault
Then they'll do that over again
And say they were just afraid
You'll see them spill out what's in them
Only to realize you were in delusion
That's how you know you were but the one
Know your worth and walk away
I know it hurts to know not everything
you thought and dreamt and felt was true
But never let them take you for granted love
And never let them take away the best in you
If I don't let go now,
I'll never.
If I don't hurt now,
I'll forever.
I wore my heart upon my sleeve
to live a broken piece of dream
I fight back, fall in, fall apart
nothing aches like a broken heart
Set fire to me, I'll burn
to rise as bright as the sun
I'm drowning in an ocean of grief
Let me, so I can set myself free
It's hard, but it has to be
But how could I not see it coming
Not once, not twice, not thrice
The heart takes the cut precise
There is confusion, how do I act
all these emotions distract
Like dark, deep, dangerous end
That circles, like play-pretend
No shields, no armour, I need
It's a battle I win or lose, I bleed
I walk barefoot with pieces glued
Cause I got no chances to lose
It's funny how placid I fought
I could have let out the thoughts
A stronger self I got to build
Cause not all dreams go unfulfilled
I am glad how it'll lead me miles
It's just that it'll take a while
And when the darkest night hits
It breaks my heart to bits
I have too many shits to give already
I donβt intend to give no more
Gone is the time when every little critique
Pricked me right to the core
I burn in fumes for a second
It pinches as it should
Yet I donβt let myself succumb to it
I save my fuel for the good
I remember the time Iβd waste
Over guilts, mind at war
I rather be calm than impulsive
I know itβs not worth anymore
Iβm trying to overlook harsh words
When it haunts back too loud
I put them in a poem
Someday Iβd read out aloud
I know thereβs no ill intention
But words are powerful my friend
They cut through and heal
They're everything you do or donβt intend
Unchained 