It's difficult explaining anybody why I must stay aloof
For nobody gets how I need to keep my heart safe
How important it is to not let it break
To not let any stranger create a wreck
I already got too much in my head space
My heart breaking with familiar ache
Ruins of days that still walk past by
Memories that never say goodbye
I don't know if anyone is capable of holding
The heart so tender a thing that it is
You need to be truly a man to know
How to hold a heart of gold
I haven’t written a blog post on our Independence day until this time. I don’t know, perhaps growing old makes you feel a tad bit more responsible towards being a true citizen. Our schools did their jobs well for instilling the sense of nationalism in our hearts. We are proud of our country, no matter what we say, and everytime the beat goes on, “Sare Jahan Se Acha, Hindustan Hmara” we beam with a different kind of feeling, one that is inexplicable.
I think about everything and everyone I can, who fought their lives because of which I am sitting here peacefully at my table today and typing this piece. Being free would vary, in literal sense. But just imagine, not being able to express your voice, or having to follow a dictator, or keeping shunn with a law that you are against. What we have now, I sure do not take that for granted and I am aware of the struggle that went behind it. I am also aware of the struggle ongoing to make sure I can keep safe. I am aware that I am equally a part of this mob, and I know my share of work and I am on it.
I believe it will never feel enough, whatever we do. However, knowing that we are trying to contribute, in whatever possible way, is all the matters.
Cheers to 75 years of freedom, and beyond.
Happy Independence Day to all my Indian friends, fellow bloggers, and family.
In the miniatures of mirage
the hot sands, the gusty winds
He was an ocean I discovered
Midway of deserted Dalidovinds
In darkest atmosphere
In fear, in spooky blends
He was the light I received
To help me strive till the end
The one who stood by
In happiness, in sorrows
He was the silent keeper
In emptiness, in hollows
He was a wonder to know
An illuminating soul, untamed
He's all I loved too much
A thousand smiles in his name
Originally written in 2014
I don't know what reminds me
Of the 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.'
Everything's fading away, just like that.
I am watching it wash away.
Maybe, I am the one trying to erase it all.
Everytime I pull myself up
You come knocking with lilies
I peep through the keyhole
And I know how I love it
I'd been longing for flowers
you sell the best ones too
I abstain opening the doors
For I'd stopped buying from you
The last time you traded
roses full of thorns
Has still got me bruises
From things I still adorn
Yet I open the door
End up buying those lilies
Through my bleeding hand
Creeps in the willies
In your presence I make memories
In your absence, poems
I'm wrenched away
Of a part of me, my love
Do you hear the conundrum?
It's me, my heart
And the life we spent
Calling your name in repeat
I take off the shore
Oh! An endless ocean of grief
People can put you through shit
And yet act like it's your fault
Then they'll do that over again
And say they were just afraid
You'll see them spill out what's in them
Only to realize you were in delusion
That's how you know you were but the one
Know your worth and walk away
I know it hurts to know not everything
you thought and dreamt and felt was true
But never let them take you for granted love
And never let them take away the best in you