2022

2022, you are brutal
You kill me
You despise me
And make me feel
As if everything I did
Wasted
My efforts
My hard earned
Back to square one

2022, thank you
For a raise
I didn't deserve
You challenged me
Bombarded with
Struggle
And Over-time
But that's what
Growth demands


2022, you're still here
Laughing at me
While I rant
But I ain't giving up
Beyond limits I
Rise
& Shine
My silver lining
On the other side

Gold

It's difficult explaining anybody why I must stay aloof
For nobody gets how I need to keep my heart safe
How important it is to not let it break
To not let any stranger create a wreck

I already got too much in my head space
My heart breaking with familiar ache
Ruins of days that still walk past by
Memories that never say goodbye

I don't know if anyone is capable of holding
The heart so tender a thing that it is
You need to be truly a man to know
How to hold a heart of gold

Mending

People can put you through shit
And yet act like it's your fault

Then they'll do that over again
And say they were just afraid

You'll see them spill out what's in them
Only to realize you were in delusion

That's how you know you were but the one
Know your worth and walk away

I know it hurts to know not everything
you thought and dreamt and felt was true

But never let them take you for granted love
And never let them take away the best in you




Isabelle

If you think it’s crazy writing to fictional characters, you’d probably not known a one so well.

Isabelle. Vianne. Antoine. Sophie. Rachel. Gaeten. Jullien.

Every single name is ringing in my ears since the last three days. I do not like eating, sleeping, rest aside doing anything else.

Our history books didn’t quite capture the acute longingness those men, women, and children had to suffer or the trauma that carried along even after the war.

And amidst everything, there was this fierce, heart of a lion, young beautiful girl of nineteen who would know love and war, and passion and survival. Only at the end, to face death, in the arms of her beloved. It happened infront of her family, her home. The Nightingale. She teaches me so many things. She’s a hero.

Until last year, the war usually meant the second or the first world war. Today, the word ‘war’ reminds of 2022, and it’s heart wrenching.

Live It Up

Tonight I'd rather enjoy this calm
of free thinking thoughts ringing alarm
Sheepish of my ways long foregone
I'm misconstrued by what's going on

Maybe it's okay to leave what's not
In control and rolling short
The pretty distant nuances of times
Laughing at me for forceful rhymes

I write lyrics for singers you won't hear
Oh, and that was a dream when ya'll cheered
Make-believe world is so beauteous
When it strikes - Game's Up - it's already dusk

Nothing Hurts Like This

I wore my heart upon my sleeve
to live a broken piece of dream
I fight back, fall in, fall apart
nothing aches like a broken heart

Set fire to me, I'll burn
to rise as bright as the sun
I'm drowning in an ocean of grief
Let me, so I can set myself free

It's hard, but it has to be
But how could I not see it coming
Not once, not twice, not thrice
The heart takes the cut precise

There is confusion, how do I act
all these emotions distract
Like dark, deep, dangerous end
That circles, like play-pretend

No shields, no armour, I need
It's a battle I win or lose, I bleed
I walk barefoot with pieces glued
Cause I got no chances to lose

It's funny how placid I fought
I could have let out the thoughts
A stronger self I got to build
Cause not all dreams go unfulfilled

I am glad how it'll lead me miles
It's just that it'll take a while
And when the darkest night hits
It breaks my heart to bits