I am not to be called insane
Anyone would have done the same
Is the vertebral column misplaced?
Or there's oxygen deficiency in the brain?
The absurd past, I don't want to touch
Cause it troubles, troubles so much
Am I lost again?
In pain in strain, oh yeah?
I know that I'm not okay
I'm fighting with myself
And if I think anymore
I might burst the nerves of my head
Category: Love, Loss, Separation
Of happy places
And magical dreams
Of sprinkles of sparkle
Of madness and sins
Of empty bottles
And broken hearts
Of everything devoid
Of healing scars
Of happiness in air
And pain in veins
Of repressed emotions
Of everything else in vain
Everytime I pull myself up
You come knocking with lilies
I peep through the keyhole
And I know how I love it
I'd been longing for flowers
you sell the best ones too
I abstain opening the doors
For I'd stopped buying from you
The last time you traded
roses full of thorns
Has still got me bruises
From things I still adorn
Yet I open the door
End up buying those lilies
Through my bleeding hand
Creeps in the willies
In your presence I make memories
In your absence, poems
I'm wrenched away
Of a part of me, my love
Do you hear the conundrum?
It's me, my heart
And the life we spent
Calling your name in repeat
I take off the shore
Oh! An endless ocean of grief
People can put you through shit
And yet act like it's your fault
Then they'll do that over again
And say they were just afraid
You'll see them spill out what's in them
Only to realize you were in delusion
That's how you know you were but the one
Know your worth and walk away
I know it hurts to know not everything
you thought and dreamt and felt was true
But never let them take you for granted love
And never let them take away the best in you
If I don't let go now,
I'll never.
If I don't hurt now,
I'll forever.
If you ever want to cry die a little more inside Unable to let out Emotions that you hide Remember that, If you can't put on your smile fake it till you make it If you can't pull yourself together fake it till you make it
I wore my heart upon my sleeve
to live a broken piece of dream
I fight back, fall in, fall apart
nothing aches like a broken heart
Set fire to me, I'll burn
to rise as bright as the sun
I'm drowning in an ocean of grief
Let me, so I can set myself free
It's hard, but it has to be
But how could I not see it coming
Not once, not twice, not thrice
The heart takes the cut precise
There is confusion, how do I act
all these emotions distract
Like dark, deep, dangerous end
That circles, like play-pretend
No shields, no armour, I need
It's a battle I win or lose, I bleed
I walk barefoot with pieces glued
Cause I got no chances to lose
It's funny how placid I fought
I could have let out the thoughts
A stronger self I got to build
Cause not all dreams go unfulfilled
I am glad how it'll lead me miles
It's just that it'll take a while
And when the darkest night hits
It breaks my heart to bits
The vicious cycle of hurting ends right here today self realizations, reality-checks I let me liberate I do not intend to write anymore 'cause I got no perfect endings self realizations, reality-checks help me liberating
Nobody has an inch of idea
Of the amount of pain she carries
Beneath her cheerful smile
And the jolly laughs
The way she spreads the love
Like molten magma
That fills up the earth
Replacing the voids in us
Dear darling be strong
Cause you're what I get strength from
Smile and walk ahead
Be a surviver in this brutal world
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PS: Wrote this last Dec, for my friend Shruti, who wanted to talk to her Dad. She had lost him a few months back then.
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