Lilies

Everytime I pull myself up
You come knocking with lilies
I peep through the keyhole
And I know how I love it

I'd been longing for flowers
you sell the best ones too
I abstain opening the doors
For I'd stopped buying from you

The last time you traded
roses full of thorns
Has still got me bruises
From things I still adorn

Yet I open the door
End up buying those lilies
Through my bleeding hand
Creeps in the willies

Mending

People can put you through shit
And yet act like it's your fault

Then they'll do that over again
And say they were just afraid

You'll see them spill out what's in them
Only to realize you were in delusion

That's how you know you were but the one
Know your worth and walk away

I know it hurts to know not everything
you thought and dreamt and felt was true

But never let them take you for granted love
And never let them take away the best in you




Nothing Hurts Like This

I wore my heart upon my sleeve
to live a broken piece of dream
I fight back, fall in, fall apart
nothing aches like a broken heart

Set fire to me, I'll burn
to rise as bright as the sun
I'm drowning in an ocean of grief
Let me, so I can set myself free

It's hard, but it has to be
But how could I not see it coming
Not once, not twice, not thrice
The heart takes the cut precise

There is confusion, how do I act
all these emotions distract
Like dark, deep, dangerous end
That circles, like play-pretend

No shields, no armour, I need
It's a battle I win or lose, I bleed
I walk barefoot with pieces glued
Cause I got no chances to lose

It's funny how placid I fought
I could have let out the thoughts
A stronger self I got to build
Cause not all dreams go unfulfilled

I am glad how it'll lead me miles
It's just that it'll take a while
And when the darkest night hits
It breaks my heart to bits











Surviver

Nobody has an inch of idea
Of the amount of pain she carries
Beneath her cheerful smile
And the jolly laughs

The way she spreads the love
Like molten magma
That fills up the earth
Replacing the voids in us

Dear darling be strong
Cause you're what I get strength from
Smile and walk ahead
Be a surviver in this brutal world

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PS: Wrote this last Dec, for my friend Shruti, who wanted to talk to her Dad. She had lost him a few months back then.

Inexplicably Beautiful

Today was magnetic
I can somehow not get over it yet
I’m afraid if I say anything
Would mean so much less

Little did I remember how
I had your perfume on my sleeves
like it’d already been a lifetime
Feeling you right over my fingertips

I could just immerse myself
Relive the day a million times
I’d even savour the mesmeric beauty
Of that vintage lamp by your side

I can't seem to find words
For a day of days; I'm healed
I think I feel beautiful too
I just can't explain...